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Maybe you should see another type of doctor. One that deals with emotional pain. I wish I had done that back when I went through it.

And it does suck.

Have. Already had my therapist call me back to check up on me.

Smart AND good therapist!

Yes, I left a message, and she called me back. I feel some better now--somehow this was the limit of the hopeless crying--but I'll probably make an appointment in the next week or two.

P.S. I love your icon, and then the song gets stuck in my head.

I had to walk out of the doctor's office for my follow up visit, and walk to a payphone, and call the midwife, crying.

She said, "oh, oh, you can come here for the follow up, you don't have to see the doctor" (who wasn't in, he was delivering a baby so I was sitting in a waiting room of pregnant women for over an hour before I got up) and went across town to see her.

She gave me a big huge hug, and a box of tissues, and I cried a while with her.

That was the first step on my journey to becoming a nurse (even though now I don't think I want to be a midwife).

Having support from that end is wonderful.

Yeah, suddenly I can't look at little kids anymore. I didn't go to family time today because I didn't want to face my niece and nephew. Somehow, I thought it wouldn't be fair to cry on them for no apparent reason.

Big hugs! Glad you're doing ok on the physical side. Give me a call when you get a chance. You don't have to talk about this unless you want to (though I'm here for you if you do). I just miss you.

Hi. This is Michael from the consuite. I've been reading you for a week or two now and I am at a lost for words. I just wanted to let you know I feel bad for you and your loss and wish there was more I could say besides 'I'm sorry', but maybe you knowing I care about you is enough?

I know I barely know you, but *hugs* and I hope you keep on moving forward with style.

I did, and plus since after they doctor said "oh well you probably cant get pregnant again anyways" I just went on with life. Was not in any way, shape, or form willing to go through that emotional/physical stuff again (obviously I did). You're not the only one, at all.

Actually, I appear to have ironized the interwebs, because I want to try again. Of course, I don't want it to happen THAT way again, but now that I know I'm not too old or broken (my innards looked PERFECT) I am more determined than ever.